And the whole time, he says, вЂOkay, depression, weвЂ™ll make this a you day.вЂ™вЂќ He indulges it-slips on an old bathrobe, rewatches movies, eats nothing but Doritos. HeвЂ™ll want to do things with his family, but then his depression will start whining like a lapdog. Ever since IвЂ™d switched jobs and lost my health insurance, he was worried heвЂ™d lose me.

He never felt comfortable talking about this part of my life-he still doesnвЂ™t. My brother, who was changing the oil in his Pontiac, grunted and shook his head. вЂњHe has this bit about depression,вЂќ I said. But recently IвЂ™d gotten on a standup kick and thatвЂ™s how I discovered Oswalt was more than the voice of Remy. When I wasnвЂ™t attending class at university or working, I secluded myself in my apartment, reading poetry magazines and rewatching horror movies. IвЂ™d stopped in my hometown one weekend because I couldnвЂ™t stand Lincoln, Nebraska. When I told my brother about Patton OswaltвЂ™s standup he thought I was on the verge of a very, very dark night of the soul. When I was in the hospital once at 14, CesarвЂ™s little brother was the only person outside my family to visit me.

CesarвЂ™s brother had Treacher-Collins syndrome, and Linguini did resemble CesarвЂ™s brother-diminished chin, extended nose, wide-spaced eyes.Д¬esarвЂ™s brother died last year-drowned on his own saliva in his sleep. вЂњAnd thatвЂ™s your brother,вЂќ Raoul said to Cesar, pointing to a scene in which Linguini smiles, his hair and face drenched in rain. I knew my way around a cutting board even back then. He pointed at Remy tugging on LinguiniвЂ™s hair, turning him into a culinary automaton. Whenever I watch Ratatouille I feel like IвЂ™m doing it a disservice by not imbibing home-brewed, illicit wine while friends rib me over a movie I canвЂ™t understand. I didnвЂ™t know Spanish but my friends did. I first watched Ratatouille in Spanish while drinking homemade wine a high school friend, Cesar, had brewed in the back of his toilet.

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